Let me explain. Five years ago, I gave birth to my first child: A beautiful, healthy girl. I had many of the typical fears that a new parent has – Can I do this? Will I be a good mom? Will my life ever be own again? Four days postpartum, the panic really set in. I cried all the time. I couldn’t sleep for the fear that my baby would stop breathing as I rested. I felt trapped with this child and couldn’t foresee a time in the future when life would feel good again. I started the countdown until my daughter turned 18, so that I wouldn’t have to parent anymore. At my two week post-partum doctor appointment, my OB diagnosed me with post-partum depression. He prescribed some medication and gave me the recommendation of a very good psychologist. Through counseling, I realized that my sleep deprivation played a big factor in my mental state, so I gave up breastfeeding to share the load more equally between my husband and me. Within weeks, my world turned around and I started to see the joy in my newborn. My Dr. said I had a very quick recovery – and I’m thankful for that – however, I always wondered what I could have done differently.
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