Weight Loss Challenge – Comparison Killer
I have to preface what I am about to say by stating that I am cleansing again and cannot be held responsible for anything I am about to say…
I am having a really hard time not comparing myself to others today. I literally spent most of my day looking at transformation stories and longing to have their results. I am feeling really down on myself and struggling to find the confidence it takes to continue with my journey. 
Comparing myself is killing my drive. I took an entire week off of worrying about what I was eating and it was probably too soon in my new lifestyle to do that. I have been living a new life for 42 days and took 10 of those days to indulge. At the time it seemed no big deal because I didn’t put on any extra pounds during the holiday break. Looking back, on day 42 now and on cleanse day 2, that was a mental error on my part. I am beating myself up for not looking like some of the other amazing people I see transforming before my eyes. Why don’t I look like that? This isn’t possible for me to obtain my goal. Why did I set myself up for another disappointment? 
This is the horrendous self talk going on in my head today. I am so tired of failing. I tried the juicing diet and even a yogurt diet (I was supposed to eat nothing but yogurt for two weeks. I lasted two days and yes, this was probably a made up diet). I spend most of my day having mommy guilt and feeling bad about the way I look. When I started this journey I felt optimistic and encouraged. Today I spent the day looking at fabulous looking people and their successes and in comparison I have failed.
JoAnn warned me not to step on the scale. I will always fail when I only count the pounds. I will also always fail in comparison to others. Am I better at cleansing this month than last? YES! Do I FEEL better than yesterday? YES! I can do this! I can get healthy both physically and mentally but this starts with comparing MYSELF to only MYSELF.
45 Day Results:
Okay friends…I need some encouragement not to stop because that is exactly what I want to do. I want to live up to what I expected of myself which is failure. I would love to hear your comments and cheers. I am not lying when I say YOU KEEP ME GOING!
Read my 30 Day journey from the beginning: Weight Loss Day 1 // Hitting the Wall // Remaking My Self // Results
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