B.C. – Before Challenge
I wear my weight like a scarlet letter, as if someone can see right through my skin and see the scars my fat has created on my heart.
I have struggled with body image my entire life, often times putting my entire self worth into my appearance. When I started having children six and a half years ago I found an excuse to stop trying and start eating. Thus began a spiral and has gotten me to 192.7 pounds and a feeling of utter defeat. Feeling no pride in how I look, shying away from attention (which is so not me) and hiding in the corner has become an every day occurrance. I have become “the fat friend” and I hate being the fattest person in the room.
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Once I realized how unhappy I had actually become, after years of complaining, I have decided to finally do something about it. I am going to fix my weight so I am healthy for my kids, happy for my friends, and affectionate for my husband.
What I’m Doing –
I am literally eating chocolate. This has got to be my favorite part. I drink my energy booster and shake for breakfast, followed by essential vitamins. Then, I drink water water water. It took me a few days to get used to drinking this much water but now I LOVE it. For lunch, I drink another shake and eat a sensible dinner. For snacks in between meals, I eat my chocolate. I have never been excited about a “diet” before, but I have more energy and excitement. I am even dreaming about how excited I am to lose the weight. I am on day 6 of my 30 day weight loss challenge and have lost 5 pounds!