Learning How to Fake It

I am out-spoken, blunt, and honest. I can’t help it. It’s the way I always have been and probably always will be. Because of this, I am shy and don’t typically like to meet new people. I’ve never been good at blending in and going with the crowd which tends to make one unpopular. Some might say I suffer from chronic verbal diarrhea.

All of my candor really comes from having a good heart. It’s like a present, just in sloppy wrapping paper and very few people are able to open this gift. I don’t mean to insult or make anyone uncomfortable but when an injustice is presented to me I just can’t keep quiet. I have never been able to “fake” it, in any sense of the word.

This brings preschool pick-up to mind. It’s like a who’s who of schools and status symbols. I get into debates with other moms on a regular basis about charter vs. public vs. private vs. homeschools, etc. I listen to these outlandish ideas of why their child will or will not succeed in public school or why they are spending $1,400/month for Montessori schooling (which apparently is the only way to learn these days::flip of the hair::). I offer my simple opinion, “You are so and so’s Mommy. As long as you are involved and love them, they will always have a great education. Don’t be so hard on yourself.”

::stares::snears:: (I guess that wasn’t the right answer. I take it back. I take it back.) BUT, I don’t take it back. I can’t fake it! These mommies are so hard on themselves, and in turn, callous to me. While I feel my opinion is valid (and therefore correct), should I just smile and nod like the other moms or speak up? This is an issue I struggle with daily and speaking up always wins.

This being said, for the sake of my child and his future with classmate friends, I am going to have to learn to fake it. I don’t want my child to suffer because his mother can’t keep her mouth shut.

This weeks GOAL: Learn how to fake it.